If I am being honest, I'm going to say this whole "big girl job" thing has hit me like a mac truck. People kept telling me stay in college forever, soak it up. I brushed those nuggets of advice off, dreaming of the day I would have no school work and be able to start a career.
Well all I can say is wow... I get it now. Trust me there are perks to working my field. I have an occasional paid three day weekend, I feel like I am truly helping people/making a difference, and get to be done every day at 4:30 with no homework keeping me awake past midnight. BUT, I have realized that not all work days are as glamorous as I have always dreamed of. Somedays they are just plain hard. It seems that before I have the chance to cross off the things on my to-do list, I have four more things added on. Not just menial things but things that need to be accomplished ASAP. Some days feel impossible to stand under all the pressure. Yep, you guessed it... ummmm, stressful.
But I think there is a valuable lesson to be learned from everything in life, not just the easy things but the hard things too. Really, if life was easy all the time that would be shallow living. Pretty happy, but I think the lessons that long affect someone can come from perseverance through hard situations. Some days are so long and emotionally draining that I am in constant prayer to God to be my source of strength and joy. I don't always see immediate results in this, but after perseverance there is such triumph.
Seriously, last week was one of the hardest weeks yet. I was on edge & under so much pressure to deliver, deliver, deliver. As I prayed through a particularly hard day, I was simply happy I made it out alive. But ya know what? The next day was filled with so much joy and laughter. It was like day and night in reflecting on the two days. There was so much breakthrough in trying to remain positive and praying through the difficulty of the day before. And when I felt like I was at my weakest, guess what? He was strong FOR me!